tbh
what did I expect
I can't get over shit
Wednesday, August 26, 2015
Sunday, August 23, 2015
23 Aug
"You will always be the best and smartest and prettiest person in my eyes"
"I don't want to be that person in your eyes ... save it for someone who likes you back as much"
haish
Saturday, August 22, 2015
Friday, August 21, 2015
Thursday, August 20, 2015
20 Aug
GET OFF THE PHONE AND DO SOMETHING YOU FUCKING BITCH IF NOT YOU'RE GOING TO LOSE HER
SHE'S THE MOST IMPORTANT GIRL IN YOUR LIFE
SEE THAT AND DO SOMETHING YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT
Saturday, August 15, 2015
Friday, August 14, 2015
14 Aug
Hey..., davina
I've been liking you for so long... But I still can't have the courage to go up to you and talk to you..
It kills me to see you talk to so many other guys and I know I'm not good enough for you but I really really really really really love you a lot
I just want to be with you
Remember when I said I wanted to tuck your fringe behind your ears
And when I said I wanted to pull and play with your ponytail
And when I said I wanted to hug you because you were just so cute
I still want to...
Remember when I told you you had cheeks that made faint cute circles when you smiled
Remember when I sent you all the retarded pickup lines just to make you smile
Remember when I called you 美女 and you would tell me that you look in the mirror everyday and you still think you're not pretty?
Every day that I look at your face reminds me that you are the prettiest girl in my life
Have you noticed that nearly every conversation between me and you, is about you? Your dance problems, your trip to Australia, your exam papers
Rarely I remind you of my own
I have rarely felt genuine concern from you
I can only wish for you to ask me once, "Why do you like me?" And I can tell you everything
Have you ever showed me any concern in return?
But it's fine, because you honestly deserve a lot more than unattractive me
It's a price I'm willing to pay, if it means you can confide in me with some of your problems
At least it means I somehow do exist..
Every time you would push me away
You've become so unforgiving... So cold... Sometimes it's almost like you hate my presence
But still I have never been able to convince myself to stop liking you
Can an infatuation last for so long? I'm not sure
But it doesn't matter anyways
Because it doesn't affect anything in any way
I'm still miles away from getting close to your heart
I still remember when I found out you liked him, and he liked you back
And when I overheard you saying bye to him when I was walking together with our clique to 7eleven
And when lam teased you and him about 69 and that stupid stuff
My heart cried to stop
I tried to numb myself with music and games
I stopped putting in effort to socialize
It all didn't matter anymore. As long as I knew less about your relationship
I don't want to know how much you talk to him
I don't want to know if you still like him to this day
I just thought everything sucked
That school and puberty sucked
My grades plummeted
I grew hopeful in sec three
But every single time I found out you were talking to another guy and confiding in him late into the night I thought it was so unfair to me
But then again you aren't obligated to talk to me only
I keep thinking if you actually cared about how I feel at all about you talking to so many other guys...
Sometimes I become so frustrated with myself that I try to make myself focus on other girls instead of you
But every time I think of seeing you in school I convince myself entirely that I love you wholeheartedly
I really do
I want to tell you so badly that in my pitiful secondary school life the only real motivation I've ever had is thinking of coming to school and seeing you smile adorably
But I get hurt sometimes to think that you don't care
Sometimes you tell me to not ever whatsapp you again
I'm genuinely afraid that you mean those things you say
I'm genuinely afraid that one day if you see this post, you will tell me
"yes I don't like you so stop annoying me"
I stay up because my thoughts constantly stray off
Imagining the impossible things that could happen
Dreaming of wanton fantasies in my sleep
Wishing for these to come true
I just need one chance to hold your hand and the courage for it
But it's hard to muster the courage in me
I've become insecure
And scared
And paranoid
I'm just a little bit hurt
I don't dare to do anything anymore
I want to get rid of these feelings so badly
I just want to take care of you
And protect you
I want to be able to look you in the eye and tell you that I really really am in love with you
But I've been so suffocated. What if you just don't like me one bit?
What if after I say anything you will become so turned off?
Will you ignore me?
Please tell me you will never hate me
Please let me hold your hand, just once, and let me tell you how much I really care for you without you avoiding me
Please acknowledge my existence and look me in the eye for once... And smile... You're the most beautiful person in my life......, davina...
Monday, August 10, 2015
Wednesday, August 5, 2015
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